It’s around 7:30pm. You step out of work to go to CVS for some stuff, you’ve got about 45 minutes give or take and you aren’t being paid. One of the students hurries up to your car as you pull out and taps on your window. You roll it down to find out that the people he had depended on let him down and he had no way of getting home. He is very polite and asks for a lift as of course he doesn’t want to walk. What do you do? … well if you’re me you say no problem and drive the kid home. He thanks you a million times and is completely respectful to your car and you giving up your time. That’s the end? no it’s not the ending.. You go back to work, finish with your last student and get ready to leave.

Then you get fired.. for doing what any human being with even half a heart would have done. I’d do the same thing again 10 times out of 10 and not think twice. Liability? What ifs? yeah well ‘what if’ I ignored him and the kid walked home and got hit by a car, shot, kidnapped.. the worst part? as we got closer to where he lived he pointed out a small wooded area by a bridge that he mentioned it’s where KKK members meet up at night.. and I should’ve let him walk home?! Then what gets held liable? My morals, my values, my beliefs, my conscience.. Those are far more important than any part time job , or any boss, even one who considers himself a Christian. That phrase.. “what would Jesus do?”.. is it a cliche? yes.. but does that mean we should stop asking?

Stemming from my boredom, and desire to up my blog post count.. not to mention my lack of the NFL Network on a Thursday night in mid December.. I present to you, 100 Truths. I found the list on a fellow tumblr’s blog. Use it as well if you wish.

1. Last beverage: Chocolate Milk (just barely beat sweet tea, I made a glass before I found this)

2. Last phone call: schwester

3. Last text message: recieved?.. “I’m not home”

4. Last song you listened to: Bon Iver - Lump Sum

5. Last time you cried: 3 minutes ago, Fabio almost got voted off Survivor.

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Got back with someone you’ve broken up with: no

7. Been cheated on: um

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no

9. Lost someone special: yes

10. Been depressed: :/

11. Been drunk and threw up: so far I’ve managed to avoid the throwing up part.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Purple

13. Orange

14. Black? if that doesn’t count as a color then Yellow.

THIS YEAR, HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend: yes

16. Fallen out of love: no

17. Laughed until you cried: don’t remember, most likely yes.

18. Met someone who changed you: No

19. Found out who your true friends were: I suppose.

20. Found out someone was talking about you: In a good way? yes. In a bad way? dunno.. wait actually yes.

21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend’s list: lol yes

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: All but 1, I think.

23. ?

24. Do you have any pets?: 1 dog 2 azureus

25. Do you want to change your name: Nope

26. What did you do for your last birthday?: I wasn’t in the country. And the reason for being out of the country was not my birthday.

28. What were you doing at midnight last night?: phone

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: too much.. good concerts, graduating, a family.. in that order?

30. Last time you saw your Mother: about 20mins ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: not seeing Bon Iver at revolution last year.

32. What are you listening to right now: The Veils - The Letter

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Laquisha?: no!

34. Who is getting on your nerves now?: no one.

35. Most visited webpage: tumblr

36.What’s your real name: nikolious maximus

37. Nicknames: Nikolai, Niko, Sanchez… -_-

38. Relationship Status: ;)

39. Zodiac sign: Cancer

40. Male or female?: Male

41. Primary School?: boulevard heights

42. Secondary School?: pines

43. High school/college?: mcarthur nsu bc

44. Hair color: dirty blonde… light brown?

45. Tall or short: tall

46. Height: 6’2

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: you could say that

48: What do you like about yourself?: my memory, the speed at which I can learn/become good at something new.

49. Piercings: two

50: Tattoos: 0 for now.

FIRST:

52. First surgery: none

53. First piercing: ears, about a month ago maybe longer

54. First best friend: evan

55. First sport you joined: basketball

56. First vacation: out of state? probably bahamas, if not that then definitely chicago. In state, jacksonville

57. First pair of trainers: huh?

RIGHT NOW:

58. Eating: just missed this by a couple minutes.. ok I’ll say anyway. I made a burrito with some chickin and rice, with hot sauce.

59. Drinking: Tea

60. I’m about to: change the channel

61. Listening to: Bring Me the Horizon lol and it changed while I was typing this to Of Machines :D yay!

62. Waiting for: things to work out

63. I’m feeling: discouraged? .. the things a few seconds can do LOL..

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids?: yes

65. Get married?: yes

66. Career: educate children on the intricacies of numbers

YOUR DREAM GUY/GIRL:

67. Lips or eyes: uh, preferably both. aliens aren’t my type

68. Hugs or kisses: package deal

69. Shorter or taller: shorter

70. Older or Younger: doesn’t matter

71. Romantic or spontaneous: both (total cop out I know)

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: belly

73. Sensitive or loud: coincidentally enough she is both, and I mean that in the best way possible

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship

HAVE YOU?

75. Kissed a stranger: define stranger

76. Drank hard Liquor: yes

77. Lost glasses/contacts: neither

78. Sex on first date: no

79. Broken someone’s heart: unfortunately

80. Been arrested: Nope

81. Turned someone down: yes

82 Cried when someone died: yes

83. Fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: not nearly enough

85. Love at first sight: hindsight is always 20/20

86. Heaven: yep

87. Santa Claus: YES ~plugs ears~ lalalalalalalalaLALALA

88. Kiss on the first date: yes

89. Angels: yes

90. God: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

91. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: No

92. Did you sing today?: yes

93. Did something illegal?: not that I recall…

94. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: If I could keep my thoughts and mind how it is now; toddler/elementary school times. Why would I want to go back to a time and be surrounded by strangers?

95. The moment you would choose to relive?: the christmas when I got a train set and a ninja turtle action figure set with their van, a few nights from this year, and AP tour and Circa show also in the running.

96. Are you afraid of falling in love?: no, thats the easy part.

97. When was the last time you lied?: I think I told my sister her cookies were good. They were actually burnt.

98. Are you usually late, early or right on time?: usually either really early or really late. sucks.

99. Would you give your life to save someone else’s?: short answer: yes

100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths: apparently not

why can’t there be a switch? a switch that you could flick to just shut down.. shut off emotion, shut off feeling, shut off the part of your brain that cares… I guess it might be because if we did, once we turned it all off, we’d never really know when to flick it back on.. and then we’d be lost. So I suppose at some point it will be worth it..

Usually when I write things I spend days, sometimes maybe even weeks, editing, rewriting, and possibly even discarding.. unfortunately pretty much, I’m a perfectionist, which is kinda funny to say considering everything I write probably stinks, and some of it is even pretty short… but that’s besides the point.

Anyway, what I want to do, is just put up some stuff that I didn’t do all that with.. so I’m gonna bite the bullet, and post a few things I wrote recently. They are exactly as I first wrote them, I didn’t change anything.. not the breaks, not the words..it is just how it came out.